Hi Every body, Still working hard. Getting ready from trip. Stay tune.
IT IS BECOMING REAL
Brian is getting ready to step out of his home routine and swing open the doors to the unknown known. This house has been his comfort, his rehabilitation center, his healing center. The people who live here with him, love him, support him and grow with him. They will be starting the journey in July with a kickoff picnic party. Stay tune for the invites and details. It will be full of love and beauty.
REALITY CHECK
What I want to say is there are peaks and valleys. Like one minute your feeling really good and the next minute you feel like hell. When I get really bummed, I think about where I was. I had machines keeping me alive, imagine how much better Ill be in two years.
I have been working on my balance. When you are in the car or through out your day, you are using your core, always making slight adjustments. It makes you stronger. Life becomes therapy.
"Being in the moment and paying attention to what is going can be amazing." CM
I went to the eye doctor yesterday, I was not sure how to take this. The doctor handed me a pamphlet for the Lighthouse. It is an agency for the blind. Then he said I do not need to come back anymore, only if it is an emergency. I felt like I had been dumped. I just kind of ignore what they say and continue on. My eyes are getting better, so I do not get it. By their standards, I had plateaued, but my eyes are getting better. Basically when some one tells me I'm not getting better, it puts a fire under my ass to work harder. Everyone's reality is different, and in my reality I am getting better.
Love B Nice
WAKE UP
I was sitting here thinking what I was like 3 years ago. I could hardly move my finger. The machines were keeping me alive, like my breathing. Today, I feel stronger and more aware of things. I have been waking up for 3 years. Imagine what I will feel like in 3 more years. I can see myself almost being normal. I guess I have to visualize. Its going to take a lot of work but, Im doing it. Spring is coming, I am waking up and getting to work everyday. My gut feeling is it is time to move forward, you know?
"The doors are open when we drop the old stories, there is plenty of new available." -CM
Love B. Nice
PAST AND FUTURE
When I was in the hospital I would think about the past, and that would get me through the rough stuff. Now I think about the future and what I have to do and where I'm going. That makes my heart feel good. There is no end and there is just a beginning and it just keeps going. The previous blog I had was about past stories, the new blog is about anticipation and future. I see the future as being positive; the past was more about a lot of drama. Maybe that makes the past more dramatic, more than my brain surgeries because I was asleep. Each day I am more and more aware and awake. I want to share with you one more thing. If you want to stop crying, just think of someone being naked, it works every time.
See you next time, I'm going to get ready for my trip.
Love B Nice