Chapter 35 - January 31, 2012

January 31, 2012

Hey everybody.  Hey happy New Year. It was the Chinese new year this week. Year of the Dragon. Sounds good doesn’t it.  Let’s make it a good one.
I started the week in a good way.  I went to another eye doctor.  It was a big day for me because my parents drove me into the city.  I had lunch with my parents in the city and then we went to the eye doctor.  This whole procedure takes a lot out of me.  It’s like running a marathon, but well worth it.  The eye doctor was really positive and informative.  I’m really messed up, but I believe they can help me.  It’s good to always get a second opinion, another point of view.  It made me feel good which is really important.
As well as good news, I’m constantly surrounded by negative energy.  It’s good to take all of this negative energy, flip it around and do something with it.  That’s why I have my projects, like driving across America, this blog, my show coming up, and my book I’m working on.  Just a few things.  It’s good to stay busy.  And stay positive.
I have a funny story I’d like to share with you.  I have a mental health nurse come by once a week.  She checks up on me, so anyway, I said to her, I’m really sad, and she said, why are you sad?  And I said, Ive got no one to talk to, my parents, I talk to my friends, my therapist.  But I have no one to talk to.  I even talk to the dog and he’s started talking back.  And I started crying, and it was a joke and she thought I was serious.  She started looking at me like she wanted to medicate me.  Never a dull moment.  We worked it out.  She’s actually really cool, and does help me.
This reminds me of another moment I thought was funny.  I get flashbacks once in a while and at one point in my surgery, #2 brain surgery, I was lying on the operating table and before they put me under, I glanced over at another table.  It was covered with a cloth, but the corner was exposed.  The surgeon looked like he had stopped by Home Depot.  I was like, “What’s all that for?”  He was like, “Excuse me?” And I said, “What are you going to do exactly?” And he said, “Exactly?” And I said, “Yeah exactly.”  And he said, “Well, we drill a hole into your spine, drain all the fluid out of your spine and relax the brain.  And then we operate.”  I said, “Oh, o.k., and by the way, good luck with that.”  And then they put me under.
Anyway, let’s make it a short one this week.  That’s all for this week everyone.  All of you out there that have been helping me out, thank you so much.  It means a lot to me.  And it helps me get through all this bullshit.  Like I said before, this is the toughest thing I’ve ever done, so thanks again for helping out.  Love, B. Nice.  See you next week