January 31, 2015


Hi. Welcome to my blog where I talk about the present. I'm gonna do things a little differently. I'm gonna mix the past with the present. Above is a photo I took of me at the beach one day. I used to drive on the beach with my dog. I picked out a good place on the ocean to windsurf. I would pick out a nice fiberglass board, you know, like 8'6", and go out on the ocean in the waves. It was total freedom. Very much opposite to how my life is right now. I mean, people have to feed me, shower me, carry me into bed. Let's just say, it's much less than total freedom. When you have a traumatic brain injury you basically turn into a stone, a stone that eats and shits. I am getting better though. I have a therapist coming twice a week to teach me how to feed myself. You know, become a little more independent. It feels great. Going back to windsurfing, cause I love to talk about it, windsurfing got me back into surfing again. Let me tell you when you're on a board going through waves, big waves, they don't seem so big when you're standing up. But when you're on your belly paddling on your surfboard, a big wave looks humongous. I guess that's kind of like life right now. It all depends on how you look at things and how you approach them. That's my profound thought of the week.

You know, it's been really cold here. I've been inside a lot. Having someone take you out of the house just for a couple of minutes helps a lot. And if someone takes you out to, let's say lunch, it helps so much. Otherwise you get a little cabin fever. Just an observation.

One other thing that's been happening is I've been getting more and more of what I call moments. I guess you could also call them auras. But they are different. They're shorter. So I guess that's a good thing. I've also been waking up feeling remarkably different each day. Like, today I feel like hell but I feel very focused. It's bizarre. Remember, you just go with the flow. Don't freak out.

That's about it for this week. Not much else to report. Oh yeah, one other thing. I keep waking up in the middle of the night wanting to put on a dress and some heavy make up. Just kidding. I wanted to see if you were paying attention. Talk to you next week. Love, B. Nice

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